My Oh My, How Quickly Things Change

My oh my how quickly things can change

and my mind, it won't calm down

so it races back and forth.  it compares then and now.  it tries to fill in the blanks.

When you left, you were coming back

But this person who is here now, she is simply a shell

Oh lord.  I'm sorry

(for what?)

Oh God, I'm sorry

(for what?)

Oh Babe, I'm sorry

(I know)

- Intended as a song.  lyrics inspired while listening to "Smother" by Daughter

The Shift

Wish the shift had never occurred. Then it wouldn't hurt so bad that you belong to her. My heart could move on with much greater ease if it weren't for that moment I got down on my knees. 

And told you I loved you. 

In front of the world. 

I told you I loved you. That you were my girl. 

I didn't know that at that very time you were moving with her. You would leave me behind. 

So I jumped on that train, the one you'd been on from the start. 

I jumped on that train, ready to give you my heart. 

But you weren't there. I waited a while. 

You weren't there. I kept on a smile. 

You weren't there. I started to search. 

You weren't there. 

You were with her. 

So now I'm stuck, halfway down this track. And I gotta walk back. I gotta trek back. But it's lonely, and its hard, and in my chest there's a scar. And back on that train sits my still beating heart. 

Damn it I loved you

Damn it I loved you

Like the sun follows the moon

I was drawn to your mystery, your magic, your light

Damn it I loved you

I just wish I had known

That my life would be so hollow, so empty, so alone

If you could pause Vancouver, would you?

If you could stop that initial touch, would you?

If you could be here, lying here, in my arms

would you give her up the way you gave me up?

Damn it I loved you

But you had a dream

And I can't take that away.  Try as I may.  I can't take that away.